starting over

today is a new day. the first day of a new week. i told myself that this was the week, this was the day, to start with a clean slate and get back on track with my weight loss.

so i got up before dawn and dragged my fat butt to the gym. i ran for 40 minutes on the treadmill. i did about 10 minutes of weight lifting. and i managed to get to work on time.

so now i must continue this commitment. i commit to sticking to the WW plan for today. i commit to going to the gym again tomorrow morning.

i think i have been in a kind of depression, or a grief process, dealing with the "no running on the roads" rule. this new rule. it makes me so sad. but i've overcome obstacles before. if i can lose that first 50 lbs, i can certainly lose another 30. i just have to do the right things and not let the other stresses get me off track.

and from what i've read, losing weight helps arthritis. it probably makes more sense to say it this way: excess weight aggravates arthritis because it puts more stress on the joints. so, i have hope. it is slim, but i'm hoping that with a little help here, a little help there, maybe i can get back to my regular running routine someday.

so today i am starting over. i'm putting one foot in front of the other and moving forward. leaving the past behind. today i will exercise. today i will eat right. today i will drink enough water.